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I Have Anxiety Dot Com
04:28
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there are too many of u ppl
idk how im going to explain myself
not like theres an obligation
but its something ive been meaning to do
how many of u hairless apes r gonna crawl into my window
ask me how my days been
& then leave the way u came in
i have so many ideas that never come 2 fruition
& sometimes i just rly wanna rhyme a word w “college tuition”
but hey im trying, im still deciding how much of a problem it is
that given enough time
i will fetishize my entire existence
(as if i hadnt done enough of that already)
i cant remember which 1 of these songs
describes exactly how im feelin
theres just too goddamn many of them
so now i have to write my own
when will my heroes stop having nonconsensual sex
& as the world condemns them
i gotta try hard not 2 defend them
i read a joke book the other day
it was fucking depressing
my sense of humors so damaged
i dunno how i manage to hold a conversation
without crawling out of my skin
i gotta hold myself together
so u dont see my true self within
or else i would burst
& become nothing more than a neat little pile of viscera
i cant remember which 1 of these songs
describes exactly how im feelin
theres just too goddamn many of them
so now i have to write my own
everything u think u know about me is right
i just gotta bide my time
til i can go back 2 doin things i like
but i can never go home
i love every voice but my own
but when will you realize
that yr favorite music
is just as pathetic & sad
just in a different way
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Shannon, I won’t talk down to you
You do enough of it on your own
You miss your friends, you miss your band
It’s easy when you’re not at home
Shannon, your memories still exist
But feelings never stick around
You’re gonna miss a lot of this
But you’re still gonna hate it now
So don’t look down, don’t look down
Don’t look down, don’t look down
Your big chance is coming up fast
The future’s always disguised as the past
Don't look down, don't look down
Don't look down, don't look down
You can still become someone
You're not who you're running from
Mistakes were made
You might have been involved
But it's not your fault at all!
It's not your fault at all!
If I were in your place
There might have been less alcohol
But it's not your fault at all!
And I'd try to catch me instead of letting me fall
Lace up your boots, pick up your roots
Forget the back of your hand
Their nostalgia is your trauma
Shannon, they don’t understand
Shannon, at least forgive yourself
Take another chance at most
Drive around with your window down
Pretend you don't believe in ghosts
And don't look down, don’t look down
Don’t look down, don’t look down
Your big chance is coming up fast
The future’s always disguised as the past
Don't look down, don't look down
Don't look down, don't look down
You can still become someone
You're not who you're running from
Mistakes were made
You might have been involved
But it's not your fault at all!
It's not your fault at all!
If I were in your place
There might have been less alcohol
But it's not your fault at all!
And I'd try to catch me instead of letting me fall
Oh no no, Shannon, I won't talk down to you
That's no kind of love
They gave you kisses when you really needed a shove
Shannon, I won't talk down to you
That's no kind of love
They gave you kisses when you really needed a shove
And that's tough
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3. |
I'm So Sure
03:37
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there are a lot of things i remember fondly
feeling independent doing my own laundry
and the short time i spent in paris
and I've Got a Friend Called Emily Ferris
first things are different, then they're never the same
ain't it weird how you can be anything you want
so you take your time, you write what you know
but change one little pronoun, everybody's freakin' out
talk about steam, secret & clean
do what i say, not what i mean
aw, don't worry, i think i know what you mean
when you say that you mean that you're trying to be mean, ok
somebody fuckin' help me i feel like i'm trapped
except i don't, i just feel really sad
i do my best to find happiness
but i try to change one pronoun and i just start freakin' out
they say if it ain't broke, don't fix it
well, i have to disagree
of course, i've been trying to switch to the metric system
since i was like fourteen
if it ain't working the way it should
it don't hold no power over you
i say we should get the thing
to stop doing the thing
we don't want the thing to do
you say you'll fix it when the situation comes
i'm so sure
you're saying everybody else is just as dumb
i'm so sure
you gotta realize you've been singing the moody blues
when you ain't that moody and you sure ain't blue
you've been thinking there is nothing that you can do
when you know deep down that it isn't true
i'm sorry if it seems like we're rocking the boat
but your mindset's older than a shakespeare quote
"So full of artless jealousy is guilt,
It spills itself in fearing to be spilt."
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4. |
Brand New Bed
03:41
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I’m going out tomorrow
I hope that you’re not there
How do you talk to someone who still hides under the hat that they used to wear?
Don’t act like this is just an item on the list of the things I know about you
Cuz you were there when they caught me unprepared; how could I know that you would, too?
I got a brand new bed but I didn’t really need it
The old one does the best that it can
“I don’t know what I said, but I didn’t really mean it”
Does that make me a fairweather fan?
I met a brand new girl but it all depends
We’ll likely end up being very good friends
I got a brand new bed but I’ll probably never sleep again
I hope I’m not projecting
I hope that I can do better
One day I’ll have to say it to her face, and then I can try to forget her
Don’t act like this is just an item on the list of the things I’m saying are mine
My mother’s anxious and my father is depressed so I guess it’s just a matter of time
I got a brand new bed but I didn’t really need it
The old one does the best that it can
You don’t know what you said, but you didn’t really mean it
Turns out you can't talk to a man
I met a brand new girl but it all depends
We’ll likely end up being very good friends
I got a brand new bed but I’ll probably never sleep again
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5. |
Bisexual Haircut
03:09
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i spent 3 hrs in an art gallery yesterday
i still don’t know how to talk to people
my time is spent
these abstract shapes have failed me once again
the people i’ve met
the people i’ve met
the people i’ve met have always been so nice to me
my only regret
my only regret
my only regret is it wasn’t who i meant to be
i can’t communicate, effectively
cuz i’ve got the bisexual haircut
& it drives me nuts
how nobody notices it
how great it must feel
to be well put together
and have every single person who looks your way
screaming “yes that forever!”
the people i’ve met
the people i’ve met
the people i’ve met have always seemed so nice, to me
my only regret
my only regret
my only regret is everything
it’s my preferred method of change
i show up with the bisexual haircut
and that i-don’t-know-what
& i distance myself from my friends
who decided to phrase it “my abusive ex”?
they’re not abusive when they’re exes
when they’re exes, they’re gone
they should be gone
why aren’t you gone??
i’m on a roll, maybe
it’s hard to tell lately
but when funny feelings feel like forever
i know it’s time to get a haircut
i didn’t know what to expect
but when i got the bisexual haircut
i was paranoid, but
i loved my reflection again
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6. |
Soda Mess
04:09
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god, grant me patience
or just complacence
it’s so much effort to care
you’re doing your best
pacific northwest
the air is good for you there
sweater is undone
you take the first one back
& cancel saturday’s plans
this is a bad song
you concentrate on
what you should do with your hands
you agonize over the punctuation in a text you recently sent
remember that time
you had a good time?
you’d love to do that again (well i can help with that)
(we'll kill some time
and we’ll find it in the mortuary
we’ll kill some time
but it won’t be buried
not too scary)
you’re getting sick of the scene
the scene that got sick of you
you’ve been looking for a back door, baby
but the only way out is through
the truth isn’t true anymore
and the time is catching up to you so
(we’ll kill some time
we’ll kill some time)
you’re getting sick of the scene
the scene that got sick of you
you keep thinking there’s a back door, baby
but the only way out is through
the truth is not fucking true anymore
so tonight we’re gonna settle the score
let's kill some time!
(we'll kill some time)
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7. |
Friends With Boys
03:07
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you walk into the room
exactly what you’d expect
all corners, surrounding you
what exactly did you expect?
you check the bathroom upstairs
you find a couple in there
smoking out on the lawn
someone stifles a yawn
black t-shirts and jeans
when you arrive on the scene
you know what it’s gonna be
you know it’s gonna be BOYS
(uwu, uwu)
they’re so easy to talk to, they never offend
except for people who aren’t you, now and again
you feel you’ve got more to offer
but you’re not much of a talker
and scared of confrontation
so much for conversation
but hey, this is comfortable, this is “safe”
but maybe it shouldn’t be
how long is this gonna take?
you’re thinking you might need to just
go and find somebody who will blow you away
and show you something different from your everyday life
learning from each other, that’s how we get stronger
you’ll be feeling okay, but you’re stuck here for today with the boys
(uwu, uwu, uwu)
now i don’t mean to oversimplify
what you get out is what you put in
but if you’re lonely here’s the reason why
everyone you know might be the same person
you gotta go and find somebody who will blow you away
and show you something different from everyday life
learning from each other, that’s how we get stronger
cuz i think i might die if i spend any longer with thE BOYS
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8. |
Irreversible Jacket
03:24
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I didn’t realize I’d been sleeping til I woke up in my clothes
Seven notifications I’d been leaving alone
Tell me in a way that makes sense to me
“Some people are rocks and some people are leaves”
A leaf got stuck underneath a stone
I don’t expect to win
The world we’re living in
Choosing on a whim
It’s me or it’s him
A kiss and a grin
It wasn’t innocent
Where have you been?
Where have you been?
You used to be so nice
I can’t take my own advice
Expect me to change my mind
Sometime, sometime
I drive more than most of the people I know
I always look both ways at the railroad
My friend was on a trip that wouldn’t end
He went away for the weekend
And you and I were left alone
A kiss and a grin
The world we’re living in
Choosing on a whim
It wasn’t innocent
It’s me or it’s him
I don’t expect to win
Where have you been?
Where have you been?
You used to be so nice
I can’t take my own advice
I expected to change my mind
Sometime, sometime
(all right)
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9. |
Liar Extinguisher
03:36
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10. |
Space Travel 101
06:10
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Somebody hold me still
Somebody keep their eyes on the door tonight
Somebody reassure my friends
I’m fine // I’m gonna be fine
It’s always the same
But I still get caught off guard sometimes
I got in; I got out
But the feeling wasn’t mine
Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older?
Wouldn’t it be nice to have more time?
You gotta get your fill
You gotta keep your eyes on the sky tonight
You gotta stay awake to say
“Goodbye. I had a good time.”
And I was ashamed
So I let you take me by surprise
That was then; this is now
This is taking back what’s mine
My virtues are clear but they disappear when I’m out of your sight
Since you left the scene, I’ve followed green light after green light
Despite the little light that I wanted to see
You weren’t there for me
You’re not here for me
At night I’ll wake up haunted
By memories of the places
And though it’s hard to face
I wouldn’t go back if I could
Love, I thought you understood that
I wish I’d gotten over it
I wish I’d changed my mind
Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older?
Wouldn’t it be nice if we had time?
God damn, I’ll be home before you know it
God damn, no one even has to know that I was gone
Count me among the believers
Until the end of this song
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11. |
No Bad Weather
02:09
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give me a sip of your cola
give me a sip of your drink
you’re saying i can see through you
i’m less observant than you think
i’m sorry this changes everything
i never wanted to change anything
can you forgive me?
eternally grounded
but impossibly high
surrounded by buildings
all scraping the sky
i’m sorry this changes everything
i never wanted to change anything
if you forgive me, will things go back to the way they were?
i check my phone thirty times in an hour
surprising no one, nothing has changed
you’re telling me, “i can see through you”
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